So, I'm sitting here all by my lonesome....kiddo went to her dad's for the weekend. The dog is off chewing something or another. And here I sit. These weekends are the worst. I have this overwhelming need to do something....anything: be it pill, pot, or liquor......to distract me from the fact that I am alone.....completely and utterly alone.
Wish I had more to say than that....but I don't.
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11 pm:
Thought I would pop on here before I konk out...oooo..two anamanapia's in one sentence...this is going to be good...not!
Gave in....took a couple shots and some muscle relaxer and an ativan to try and make the lonliness relent...but what I was really after what some sort of high....it wasn't quick enough...
About 20 minutes after....I couldn't take it anymore...I cut.
I feel much better now...visited buschat for the first time in a long time. It's a great SI chat....meff died though...stupid pig flu....
Now kind of depressed...and sleepy...and I want more high....don't want to sleep all day tm....want to be normal...whatever that is....
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